I'm wondering...

Will you accept my apologies not to have been able to find you when you were still a little child ? Can you forgive the unforgiveable ? Will you accept to look at me in the eyes, for me to take your hand, to tell you how much I've missed you during all those years ?
How much do you remember of me, of us , Marc ? Do you know you have a mother on this earth who is desperately looking for you?
When I see teens of your age at the school where I'm working, I just let my imagination wander and I dream about you, what you look like, the way you laugh, the way you smile...
I'm wondering, my love, if you can forgive me for having failed to bring you home earlier...
I'm sorry Marc, I am so so sorry. I will show you one day how much I have tried during these years and I have not given up. I never will because you need to know. I need to tell you " I love you, I have never abandonned you" in the eyes.
MAMAN