A message for your 16 th birthday

Sweetheart,


Earlier today, as I was sitting at my desk, I was looking at that adorable little face of yours placed right in front of me. I felt that an overwhelming surge was sweeping over my  heart. Marc, today, I want to say I am sorry, so dreadfully sorry to have done what I have done, that is to say  leave you alone for all that time, having failed to be present , close to you, when you were little. There will be no repair for that and I only will have my eyes to cry. I feel  desperately regretful. Somethimes I feel like dying out of despair, but I have to carry on for you,  your brother and sister, . I have to hold  on but believe me , deep inside me, I experience the taste of sorrow  every single day. There is this  smiling appearance  that  I show on my face,  present as a protection , as a defense, and  this indescribable pain  I feel deep down, the same you have  felt  when you were little. Only you and I know what it's like to be separated !

This is not a very happy message Marc but this is how I feel  ten years after your abduction. I feel it's high time we meet again. Tell your father there will be no anger, no mean words, I am way past all that . I long for peace and I am desperate to see you, to know you are well and alive !!!


Happy birthday  my love !

MAMAN